My hair is falling out a lot more rapidly this time, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. I really don't want to go back to the little comb-over I had going for the area around my mini cowlick. The skin on my hands started to show those little tears that look like a rash during drilling ceremony reviews we were doing outside, in JROTC. There are a couple of other side-effects that I find too embarrassing to mention, but I know how to remedy at least one of those. At first, there was a discernible change in my moods, and the muscles of my lower back knotted up like I'd taken a good spinal beating with a cinder block. I'm still a bit irritable, but that's both manageable and likely due in equal part to a conglomeration of other factors, such as my poor sleeping habits, diet, exercise, and I've never been a big fan of the screechy TAG underclassmen who just always seem to be a few feet closer than I want them to be. The damage those little brats have done over the past year—and seem content to continue doing—to my eardrums can never be undone. I don't want to be subjected to their twittering squeals about hamsters and their connection to Sasquatch. Alas, I digress...
So, as I was saying, I don't know if it's still worth it to take this stuff. I mean, it took care of my chest, upper arms, and my back quite effectively the first time. I'm just so oily. Maybe the only solution is to move to a drier climate, one more suited to my genetics... This drug doesn't seem like it's in my best interests anymore; I can pull a fair number of hairs off my arms and head without it hurting. I don't want my eyelashes to start falling out again, either. That was crushing. Still, I love staying clean for so long. Before I first started taking the drug, early last December, you could have literally greased a skillet with all the oil that my face built up within fifteen minutes of washing, and you'd probably have plenty left over. The idea of lotions and the like was abhorrent to me. I'm so OCD about personal hygiene, and, considering I hit puberty at ten, with things just getting worse each year, I can't decide what's most important to me: my hair (I'm so bad at retaining body heat as it is, could I even survive without the stuff? :P), or getting a break after almost eight years of never feeling clean. This is probably the kind of personal issue that isn't appropriate to discuss in one's blog, but it is genuinely one of the major undercurrents in my day-to-day...
Whatever. I'm exhausted. I didn't mean to spend so much time on this. I'm not going to go back through for a final edit. It's not like it's formal, anyways; there should be diorganization, tangents, and error. 'S not like anyone cares; if you do, just forgive me this time, yeah? (;i)
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After how much hair was eliminated from the back of my head this past evening, I'm all the more inclined to agree. I just wish I'd noticed before taking two more of the pills. (>.<)
Well, no more after this, almost for sure. I gots priorities, eh? (;})
September 26, 2008 at 12:54 AM
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